The Life of a Mama Public Defender

Balance.

This picture reminds me of life. Often times I find myself completely unbalanced, with my daily struggle being a balance of my beautiful family with my ugly beautiful job. Sometimes my family is winning, sometimes my job is winning. But my goal is always to even that out a little bit more.

I know I'm not the only one who struggles with balance. Most of my Mama friends have admitted the struggle as well. The problem I find is this: I love love love my job. It makes me whole, completes me, excites me. So to push that aside completely and focus whole-heartedly on my family is difficult. DON'T TAKE THIS WRONG. My family ranks far  above my job. My amazing hubs and beautiful nuggets outweigh EVERYTHING else. But I find myself in a costant struggle trying to be the best that I can be at work and be the best that I can be at home.

I want the nuggets to see that work can be fun. I want them to know that it is a blessing to end up in a career that you enjoy going to daily, and to not feel guilty about doing that. But I want my work to know that my family comes first. And when push comes to shove, and the nuggets need me more, they will win.

So how does one do this?

That I do not know.

What I do know is this: being aware of a daily balance helps even thinks out just a tad.

Dear Jax, You are ONE.

Dear Jax,

You are ONE. We can't believe how fast this year flew by (of course), but oh my we are excited you are ONE.

You are such a different little man now that you are one. Your favorite things to do are:

1. Yell - you communicate by yelling and pointing. It gets the job done.
2. Walk/Run - you look like a drunk baby walking and running, but it's so darn cute.
3. SMILE - you smile a lot. Your little grin keeps this Mama tickin'.
4. Cars, trucks, and anything with wheels - you are all boy.
5. Play in the sand - your papa built you a sandbox!  You think you're in Hawaii again when you play in there.
6. Go to school!  You started school full time this month, and you go with miss T. You love it there!
7. Swinging, teeter-tottering, sliding - you think the playset and parks are the best!
8. Four Wheeler Rides!
9. Lawn tractor rides!
10. Attempt harm on yourself- you are a KAMIKAZE. These things you do are intentional, and they are crazy. I'm frightened.


You are starting to sleep better these days!  We love it, and you getting us up at 5 every morning helps us enjoy the ENTIRE day. Thank you for that.

You love Miss T more than anything, you just admire her all day long - in school, in the car, anywhere - and she shows you the ways of the world.

You are still quite the Mama's boy, but you love your Daddy too. He takes you to the shop for boy things.

We are so blessed to have you in our lives, little man. We can't wait to see what you bring.

We love you,

Mama